Whee ! I'm feeling much much better right now . I get to hear her voice . Her laughter . And her biol2 - ness . . Ahakz . Hmm . Hey you lala . Can't wait for saturday nite . Till 4 am ehk . Kalau paitao . . I dont know what to say . ahakz . Hmm . Kk . Let me share about the three days . Wednesday . All i can say is . Friendly match lose . To tanjong katong . 7-5 . Hmm . Tired . Exhausted . Asthma . Wow . So . Bla3 . Can't remember . Hmm . The next day . All i can say is . Soccer again . Training for the FICO cup la . Ahakz . And hmm . Went back home around 8 . Lepak at playground with members . Hmm . Make lots of noice sampai ppl complain . Haha . . So . That's was my thursday . Eh2 . Lupe ar . Hmm . Talk on the phone with this someone who now known as lala . Ahakz . Had fun talking with you yesterday . And whatever i've done wrong to you . Thousands sorries . . Haha . Hmm . So . Looking forward for the saturday night . Maybe what will happen this tyme . Kk . That was my thursday . Kk . Today . Had friendly lagy . And lost lagy . Shit sia . I was half dead in the field . It was damn hot . Fcuking bitch ! Hmm . Lost again hong kah sec tadi . 3-1 . Seriously . I must give a comment to acap , jia qi , zul , n afif for doing great tadi . WEll done chicks . Ehk . Mats . Ahakz . Hmm . K la . Out of words ar . Till here then . Bye2 !

1230 am in the morning . And im not asleep yet . After that tiring match against queensway sec . . And yet i still can sleep after 12 . . Cool mahn . . Hmm . Today was quite ok . Had a friendly match at queensway sec . Preparation for our B boys next year . . Its not gonna be an easy one . . All the schools are getting better . So . Meet up at 7.20 am at the morning juz now . So . Reach there saw lots come already so i was last to come i think . . So . Travel there by transport bus . . REAch there . . Change get ready warm up and the c boys start first . . C boys won 3-2 while B boys , we , lost 5-4 . Jz a goal down . We should have won it bt we blew up all our chance to bring back a victory for us . So . Starting line up . Pelangi in goal . Azmi left . Hafiz last man . Hazim stopper . Irfan right . Khairi defensive mid . Yat attacking mid . Anwar left . Afif right . Riduan up front . First half was horrible sia . Field like shit . First half was 4-0 sia . Second we come 4-1 . Bt in the end . They won . Haiz . . Nvm . Next game against tanjong katong sec . Hmm . Easy or ?? Hmm . Nvm . So . BLa3 . Reach home sleep . Wake up at 6 then eat then watch singapore cup final . then play psp fifa09 . Rafi lost already then wanna fight again . . Loser ! . Haha . So . Psp carging rite now . So . Com to entertain me . Now online-ning . No one wanna chat except for azly , lutfil , wan and SHEILA !!! . Ahaha . . Hmm . Chat with her for a moment then she have to go . Hmm . Nvm . Tmrw have per . Kite tok2 ar k . Until 4 am ar this time . Haha . . New talking partner . Whee . . Hmm . So . That's bout it . Azly . What is this man . Kau yg plan nie sume ? At last cam gini ? Kau yg merayu kat dier ? Come on man .

I'm still wondering why i just can't forget bout you ? Is it i still do love you ? Or my love for you is just too strong . I'm just jeolous and hurt when i always saw you having fun with him . And i dont know why ? Seriously . Ask those who really knows everything bout me . You use to be my talking partner . My chating partner . My luaghing partner . My crazy jokes partner till you fall off your bed . I just can't forget all those moments especially the 19th . Haiz . I've waited for you for quite a long time . And i'm still wondering why i'm still waiting ? Sometimes i still wonder why i'm still here . Maybe now you have he's love back . And you dont need me a any longer . So i wont be ur bestfriend any longer . You have _______ . and _______ to make you happy . So i better leave you now for you to enjoy ur wonderful life . I wont talk to yu any more . I wont be calling you anymore . No more 4am . I wont be calling you kiwi anymore . I wont be ur kunyit any longer . And there will be no more 19 may . Now it will be just my wonderful memories i had with you . With you will be my most memorable song ever . I'll listen to it every single night . Everynight tears willl be running down my cheeks everytime i'm listeing to that song and some other songs that were meaningful to my life . I'll write just one more song for you as a goodbye song to you . I've should be yours any longer . And yours will be my team mate for this B boys division . I just dont know why i can't really forget you . Tears running down now . Haiz . If i had just one wish . I'll just wish that you'll be remembering your old best friend . You seem to forget me recently and always pay attention on him . I saw your picture with him in ayu's camera . And he's holding your ? ? ? I just dont wanna say and i cried and hurt that time . Ayu knows everything . This will be my greatest fall of all time coz i failed to get you this time . Maybe there's no love for us and we're meant not to be together . Its true what you've say . We will not be together . Somehow i can still remember that you said you do want 19 may to be back . Bt what is this ? You're getting world . Dont you know that ? On that second day of camp obor ? At the beach . ? What did you say ? You insulted him . You criticize him . And yet you still ? Argh . Forget it la ehk . All i know is you're getting world and you words are all fake . Nvm . I've never regretted being your friend ? Or am i even your friend ? I'm confused . I know you dont have my link . Bt if you find it . I hope you read this and think twice before you do . All i want is the old you just like you said to me . And now you've change a lot . Not me . Bt you're still be part of the list in me . I'm confused . My heart is telling me to let go . Bt i dont wanna to listen to them . Stories you tell as we lay in bed all night . I'll listen to your cries and listen to all your stories about him to me . ? Bt now . ? You wont need me as you have him for you to tell your stories . I dream you now, every night, in my mind is where we meet. Parade square was where i first saw you . With you long hair . Your blue specs . You blue bag . And where you and azly was fighting calling each other pantat and jubo i think ? YOu called me a nerd last time when we first knew each other . Haiz . I'll be remembering all that days . The day we celebrate your birthday party . The necklace we shared . I'll keep them close to my heart and i'll take good care of them . And i hope you dont throw my bear that i gave you during valentine's day . and never to forget me . now . It has pass midnight . All i wanna say is . I love you and all i want is you . Bt i know . You have him and you never had love me before . All you want is him and maybe it's true that we wont be together and bestfriend might be your enemy . Haiz . Just so you know . My heart have loved somebody else and that's her . Everybody knows it . She's a good gerl . Preety . Friendly . Kind-hearted . Bt i dont know if she does have feelings for me ? Maybe i'll ask her one day . And for now . Goodbye to you and tc and last long with him aite .

Wow Wow Whee ! New word yawl . . Muahahahaha . . So . Today . . Had fun . . And had some tears today . . And i dont even know why ? Is it coz of something or what ? K . Lets carry on . . Hmm . Today still have the obor thingy . And i'm damn tired for these past 3 days . Haiyo . Hmm . Nothing much today . . Bla3 . . All i do was to chillex inside the room and do nothing bt to continue with my song . So . Still working on it . . these new song is refering to someone i recently met . Haha . Writing about how i met with her . How we go on . Haha . If finish i'll show you all wokay ? Hmm . So . My heart still hurts coz of that stupis shit . Whoever feel i'm talking about you . Maybe its you . Hmm . Yet my heart still wondering . Wondering why i'm still waiting . . Wondering why i felt hurt when you're with him . The photo i saw that u're taken together . . Wow ! Baek per ! Pegang kat sane . Cool kan ??? Forget it . Dont wanna get it to their life ever again . What i'm going to do now . . To search for a new one for me and i've already find one . . And maybe i'll be happy being with her if she take me as her ehem2 . . So . . As i was saying . . I had fun today . Made new members . Lutfil as usuall . Azly , ayu n alif was really crazy today . Haha . . Hmm . Sheila and liyana were in my friends list . Filzah too . She went home early today oz of something la . So . Sheila was great today . Laugh a lot . Hamdan ar . Bbl semangat sia at interchange and in the bus . . Haha . . We were like laughing our lungs out . . Haha . . Hmm . So . Sheila sat beside me . Whee . . Happy la siotz . ! Haha . . Hmm . When sheila alighted off the bus . Every body were saying . Happy ar zim . Haha . . Hmm . So . I slept in the bus as i'm really tired and sleepy . Sleep while hearing to my sngs . Haiz . Almost cried of one thing . What for crying when she doesnt even cared about me any longer . Am i right . Better to move on . Hmm . . May it be our bested memories on the beach that day . Hmm . So . My heart is in two different places right now . After i've seen what you have done . And what you've said to me . I better let you go and enjoy ur life . From now on . I'm not gonna be close to you and evenhad fun with you . Just friends i think . I dont want us to be like last times . And i know you're thinking the same way either . Its better this way . Hmm . And now . Im in love with another gerl whom i know we can be happy together if she treated me the same way as i does . Hmm . She really a good gerl and even much more clever than anyone . Haha . She friendly . Can hang around with . Can laugh and chat with . . Haha . . Its better . She making my life go crazy . Wow Wow Whee !! Hmm . So . I wanna thnks lutfil for introducing her to me . And i'll promise mysdelf to get her and try to be hers if she want to . Bt i'm ot 100 percent sure as she's much more older than me . Haiyo . Haha . . Like what ppl says . Cinta tidak mengikut usia . Love doesnt go for ages . Like yat and hazirah . Haha . . Haiz . So . I'm trying hard for me to forget her bt surely i hard to persevere and never to give up and i will hold back my tears not to let them fall over my face againg . All those pictures we took . And that love songs i wrote for you . Will never be erase and will be forever a sweet memory to me . And now . Goodbye to the days that have bee areally great day for me . I really had enough crying just becoz of you and i dont wanna get hurt any longer . So . It supposed to be my 6th month today bt what to do . Tiada jodoh bagi kita untuk bersama . Tips for those who want to be with her . Firstly . Be with her whenever she need you . Be by her side if she's sad or some other stuff . Hug her tightly if she feels cold or what so others . Make her smile by giving her riddles n jokes until she fall off her bed . Gives her names and you'll call her that if you want . Call her every night so she could have some one to talk to . I guess my help wont be good enough coz she's got a perfect guy to be with . And i wish you all the best being together . Till here . Gdbye 19 . . TEARS falling !

3 for today . My mood was gone . Bt somehow i get better when i saw my dearest sheila . Haha . . Lmbt nyari . I juz know her 2 days pass and da mcm ehem2 gitu la kan . . Hmm . So she's late and so am i . . Seriously this morning was the suckest day of my morning . . It have nvr been so suckish before . . K . . Firstly wake up late . . Fish mahn ! Secondly . Parents da tau aku nyari ade bnde tu . . Dont know how to wake me up is it ? Thnks to khidir for calling . . My ear was half deaf sia . . Pain is beating . . Haha . . Thirdly . . Hair was mess up so i bring my cap along . . Hmm . So . Hair still wet so use it itchy kan . . Otw go there sia scratch all the way . . Haha . . Cool rite . i know . . Haha . . So . What i noe is . My day for today was half good and half bad . Bt thnks to them la ehk for making my day up ! Thnks ehk you all . . Hmm . Sheila , Lutfil , Azly , Ayu , Filzah , And her frinds la i dunno the name . . Hmm . So . Do nothing bt to in charge of the praying room . . Watch some movies with azly when no ppl were praying . . Haha . . Gerek la siul ! Hmm . The best part was to wakanabeb ayu and amira . Haha . . Sry la u guys . Play2 oni . Hmm . So . At the beach was the part where i almost cried . And i dunno why . Haiz . . Seriously sia . . You insulted hym at the beach . Then at that place . You had fun with him ? WTF sia you talking and doing ? ? Da la ehk . Lazy for me to entertain your world2 . Forget it uh ! So . I had fun with sheila and the rest ar . . So . . Need not to have you . Hmm . My heart hurt when you . ARGH ! Why am i keep thinking about that . So3 . . Do2 all the stuff like we always do . And then bla3 la . then go home then bla3 again . . Will update tmrw la . Mood sucks !